Totally Unprepared

I have a 10K this Saturday and I am totally unprepared. I really haven't been running that much, maybe two, three times a week if I'm lucky, and nothing of any significant length. I mean yesterday I ran for 45 minutes and that was the longest run since the Saturday after the half-marathon when I ran 6 miles…and that was a month ago.

My lack of training and consistency does not bode well for my performance on Saturday. I have a feeling I may be disappointed. Which makes me not want to run at all. Sometimes I'd rather sit on the sidelines than perform poorly. Oh, my pride. The thing is I wouldn't want to waste my entry fee and I kind of want the t-shirt, so I'm going to run.

I though by signing up for another race, I'd be able to continue the high that I felt after running the half. Unfortunately it has not been so. Maybe the races were too far apart or maybe I just don't feel like I have anything to prove anymore. I mean, I met goal--surpassed my goal--of finishing sub 2 hours. But in running, just because you've met a goal doesn't mean you stay at that level, not without a lot of running and hard work anyway. Once you've met a goal it just means that it is time to set a new one, cause if you don't you'll stop trying. Like I did.

I'm sure I have lost any competitive edge that I attained from my training and running of the half-marathon and because of that my expectations for Saturday are low (mostly because I don't want to feel like a failure--well, I guess you could say I already do).