Anything Worthwhile

Anything worthwhile takes more than one choice. There’s the moment you decide to do it and then there are countless more times you choose that thing over and over again. 

Like the choice to enter recovery, and then to keep choosing recovery even when addiction seems insurmountable. 

It’s the choice to say “I do,” and then keep choosing that person even when you’re at odds. 

It’s choosing to leave and then choosing yourself over and over again when shame and guilt show up. 

It’s the choice to try to parent differently than the way you were raised and then the choice not to slip into habits you didn’t know you carried inside you.  

It’s the choice to love yourself and then continue to keep figuring out what that means and what it looks like.

It’s the choice to sign up for a race that scares you, and then the choice to keep going on a training run when it’s hot and humid and hard. 

It’s the choice to begin and then continue on that path, no matter how much it twists and turns.

There’s a lot of enthusiasm and momentum with that first choice because it feels like a new beginning, a fresh start. The difficult part is when you’re in it and there’s distraction or discouragement or failure, when it is easier to say “at least I tried” than “I choose to keep going.”

All the worthwhile things in our life, the things we look back on and feel a great sense of pride, where we think: I did that? I did that! Those worthwhile things are not the result of one choice, they are the compilation of a thousand little choices. 

May you keep choosing forward, friends. 

-Saraj